Tuesday, April 26, 2011

As I have been researching the concept of archive and archival acts, primarily from a Derridean and Foucauldian philisophical perspective, I ponder the idea of archive as a ghost, a haunting, a sorrow, a grief, and a false sense of self-fulfillment and contentment. I read somewhere that Yoko Ono once said, "I believe in people so much that if the whole of civilization is burned so we don't have any memory of it, even then people will start to build their own art. It is a necessity- a function. We don't need history." I wonder now, is it possible to free oneself of archive? I can only speak for myself when I say that everything in life is used, contaminated from previous existences and experience. However, I fear that this mentality is holding me back from a new sort of transformation. I fear what I might lose because I hold so much in my life as dear and historically integrated necessities for my being, but then I cannot accept to be. I live my life in fear. I am afraid to let go of this fear because I know it will hurt, and perhaps traumatize me, but Kira O'Reilly once told me that "Pain is weakness leaving the body." I cannot let go of lanuage or bodily experiences, but I can somehow embrace the transformations this knowledge within me produce and reproduce. I can make, do, create, and destroy the materials around me and I believe that will be ok. In this sense, there is no pressure for me to stay the same, for I am always a verb, in the process of...

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

"Exorcising [EXORCIZING] Yvonne" (2010), Photos by Hrafnhildur Benediktsd├│ttir

Monday, January 10, 2011

"A progressive politics is a politics which recognises the historical and specified conditions of a practise, whereas other politics recognise only ideal necessities, univocal determinations and the free interplay of individual initiatives. A progressive politics defines, within a practise, possibilities for transformation and the play of dependencies between those transformations, whereas other politics rely upon the uniform abstraction of change, or the thaumaturgic presence of genius."

- Michel Foucault

"Untitled (syncopations for more bodies)" by Kira O'Reilly (2010)
Photo by Jon Cartwright

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I am a firm believer in somatic and movement research practices. My work ethic within performance continues to transform as my body engages in various activities. I sense my body as an archive, housing memories always already transforming throughout the accumulation of my experience. I am what I am doing. What I do is what I am proposing.